self-proclaimed best blog of the year !!: December 2005

27 December 2005

Syiok Sendiri

WARNING : THE FOLLOWING CONTENT IS DEEMED TO BE HIGHLY INAPPROPRIATE FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO DIGEST THE IDEA OF ''SYIOK SENDIRI''. THE AUTHOR SHOULD NOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE OR LIABLE OR WHATSOEVER SHOULD THE UNEXPECTED HAPPENS.

Thanks to Yi Ling, i got this idea of recording my singing and subsequently uploading it to my blog. At the point of typing this, i'm already done with the song, but not after umpteen trials and some hilarious moments involving my german housemate...:)..hehe, anyway, my song is far from ''einwandfrei''(German: perfect) and all i can say is, it takes much more solo efforts beyond imagination to produce a real flawless piece.

I actually planned to kao tim the song last night, straight away after coming back from Karlsruhe. With fervent enthusiasm and knowing that there should be no one around since it's christmas, i grabbed my guitar, along with my laptop and webcam (the mic is built in one lah) .... and went out to the living room to sing my heart out. Though it's winter, it's unbelievably warm in the living room owing to the heater. At a certain point, it took off my shirt without me realising it ...:p....

And at one shot, when i was almost done with my song... My german housemate came back and it was just a matter of split seconds when our eyes crossed.... :p

If u were him, what would u think of a guy sitting ''topless-ly'' in WINTER in front of his own webcam in the living room with a guitar and uncombed hair with a few flies above it ?? perverted ??? sexy???? hahahahaha.......

I was on the brink of giggling embarrassingly, but i managed to hold myself back and pretended to be normal.... ''Merry Christmas'' was the first word coming out of my mouth....hehe....darn funny la at that time....

He actually stopped by and listened to me sing....knowing that he's a music idiot, i told him i like playing guitar a lot...bla bla bla and acted like a pro (damn) and he really believed that i'm a pro !!! wakakakaka..... anyway, i had to stop playing after like 5 minutes...otherwise he would have known that i was actually doin this ''syiok sendiri'' stuff...:p

For those of u who might wanna listen to my song, click here. As i said, it's difficult to record a flawless piece ...this is just the ''best'' that i could do, albeit with a lot of ''zhao yim'' (off-pitch) and undesirable background noises....
anyway, dun download it if u can't handle heart attack and off-pitch song..:p

17 December 2005

23

That's it, my 2nd birthday in Germany.....

I remember writing an article last year straight away after my birthday, and to be precise, exactly one day after my 22nd birthday. So here i am once again, sitting on the same spot in my room, repeating the same feat with the same old but evergreen compaq laptop whilst trying nonchalantly to flip through the virtual pages of the previous years in a retrospective manner.

Improbable as it may sound, i actually believe that i've grown much more in the previous year than the 22 years before it. Perhaps the confluence of various factors, both extrinsic and intrinsic alike, have had a subtle but great influence on me.

With the things i've seen, with the experiences i've gone through, with the moves i've taken, with the decisions i've made and with this and that happening along the way, you can't expect me to be the same person that i used to be.

I remember asking myself on a regular basis : is it actually worthwhile to sacrifice this for the sake of that ?
but now i'm telling myself : i'll not question it anymore but rather, i'll make it worthwhile.

I remember telling myself : How nice would it be if i were to study locally and to have all those mamak stall experiences, chilling out with familiar faces and so on ...
but now i'm telling myself : How nice would it be if i were to be able to do the things that i could't do back there and experience the things that i couldn't possibly experience locally.

and i also remember making wishes on each and every birthday that i've had before this, only to have either been let down or to have forgotten completely about it after a fortnight. That is why i opted for not making any wishes this particular year, but rather setting targets for myself.

Of course, i do still feel down and get frustrated with things once in a while, but i recover much more swiftly and incipiently after that than ever.To be frank, i just realised this actually...hehehe

Ohh ya, perhaps it's time to look more aggresively for a GF ?? :p